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I've been at a point in my life for about, oh, a month or two now where I'm just on the edge of going to do something really wonderful, and don't get me wrong or anything, I am super excite for this change in my life -- but the wait? Is getting old.

I mean, I'm leaving for uni a week tomorrow. Maybe it's because I'm tired right now but I just don't even feel that nervous about it right now. Just... the wait is so boring. I can't really do anything worthwhile here because hey, I'll be leaving soon, what's the point? Except for the reading list of many books that I have yet to work through. However, I'm trying to work through the important ones so I don't look like a total ass at least.

Uuuugh. Why can't I just do anything anymore? I mean I've always been a lazy procrastinator but this is really taking it to a whole new level. Do I just not work well outside of a school setting? I keep wondering if I'm going to get to uni and it'll turn out that I just can't function there because hey, lazy procrastinator who needs outside pressure to do her work and doesn't always do it even then. What if I'm just not cut out for the way they do things at uni? The possibility is frightening because I literally have nothing else to do with my life.

Oxford's been the thing I've been working towards for the past year and I didn't even work that hard for it to be truthful, but now I'm guaranteed a place there and it's just... blah. I don't know. I need a new motivation. Maybe I just need a personality transplant. I don't know what to do when things aren't easy.

What am I going to do with my life? I turned 19 two days ago and I don't know what I want to do with my future. Or rather I know what I'd like to do, I just doubt I have the ability to actually do it. Or not even the ability, I don't have the drive. Although I don't know, maybe I don't have the ability either.

Such a long and pointless ramble. This probably doesn't make any goddamn sense either. Blarggh. It would be nice if I had somebody to talk to about this but they'd just say the same things they always say and I didn't believe them the first million times. Apparently you're not allowed to worry about anything if you're clever. Unfortunately I don't work like that.
quotemyfoot: (becker mental swearing)
Still working on my Big Bang fic. My beta is a wonderful person who I will love for basically forever but I haven't actually had to edit anything before and oh god it's so hard! I mean not that it's not necessary because now that I've seen the problems I'm face-palming at many of them. Still. Let me vent, okay.

Also, just watched the new 'Planet Dinosaurs' show on BBC1 right now (like literally it finished a few minutes ago) and yay, dinosaurs are still cool! I'll have to ask my little brother if he saw this, it was fantastic. The CGI was a bit hit and miss, but the creepy atmosphere was absolutely spot on and all the documentary stuff was super interesting. Also, Sarcosucus (sp?) is the best name for anything ever. Now I want my own twelve metre crocodile. The Philippine one will have do I guess. :(

Now there's 'Dinosaurs, Myths & Monsters' over on BBC4, presented/written by Tom Holland. After reading Millennium, I'm expecting good things. He hasn't disappointed so far. He has the exact same engaging narration on screen as he does on the page. This is the kinda guy I want to emulate!

More geeky rambling under the cut )

quotemyfoot: (nick primeval)
(Not Big Brother.)


I should probably stop making Surge a mother hen but it's so much fun I can't even help it. I should definitely stop procrastinating by, for example, making LJ entries that no one is going to read.


In my defence, I am still fully intending to stick to that promise of finishing this draft before August, and I actually really kinda desperately need to finish it in that time because I have a whole bunch of books that I must at least skim read because GUESS WHAT GUYS MY EXAM RESULTS WERE AWESOME AND AMAZING AND MADE ME SQUEE LIKE MAD OH AND THEY ALSO MEAN I AM GOING TO MOTHERFUCKING OXFORD UNIVERSITY.


NOTHING HURTS FOREVER.




This shit also got me a free drink last night. It was a great day.

Jane Eyre

Jan. 27th, 2011 06:33 pm
quotemyfoot: (pretty jess)
I kinda wanted to dislike this book. Actually, to rephrase that, I was kinda predisposed to dislike this book. I don't like romance for the most part (Austen is the exception to this and romcoms are officially the worst of all things) and the Victorian-ish style of writing kinda grates on me as well, although I admit this is a prejudice from being forced to suffer Charles Dickens back in Year 10. Also admittedly, this is a prejudice that has not really been borne out apart from Dickens and the Great Gatsby, but I digress. I already knew what happened in Jane Eyre and I knew it was... kind of depressing. I mean, I like my woe as much as the next girl, but this book has had like two happy chapters out of twenty eight. I am like two thirds of the way through the book and things do not look set to improve soon.

And yet, I like it. I really like it! Jane is actually a surprisingly modern girl, Mr. Rochester has almost more manpain than Becker, both are flawed but likeable characters, their romance works, Mrs. Rochester is the creepiest ever and asdfjhskl; how is Jane going to get the happy ending, i must know unnnnn.

More depressing than any event in this novel: this shit was written like a hundred years before Twilight. stephenie meyer, how did you manage to set us back further than the fucking victorians
quotemyfoot: (nick primeval)
Maybe I don't prefer ff.net so much after all?

Anyway, just been busy acquiring me some Primeval icons, because having only Persona 3 just will not do! One from [livejournal.com profile] bea_tricks , [livejournal.com profile] bella_farfalla and [livejournal.com profile] sallymn as well as two from [livejournal.com profile] tli_productions . I'm currently showing off a particularly pretty one of Nick. Sadly, no Danny icons caught my attention. I did, however, have to stop myself stealing about three million Lester ones. XD

Had an exam today. This is the THIRD time I've done this exam so hopefully this will mean an A not a B this time. Damn those picky examining boards.

Also, been lurking in some Primeval communities and have seen a good number of complaints about 4.03. I'm finding myself agreeing with several points, but I actually have a thought about the lockdown system that people have been complaining about and I'm writing it here before I forget. Call this fanwanking maybe, but whatever.

Thoughts below the cut. )

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